It’s midnight. I’m sitting in my dorm. By myself. This is so weird because I’m so used to having everyone around. Everyone stomping up and down the halls, Marissa yelling some profane slur while playing a stupid video game, and people walking in and out of every room is an everyday occurrence around here. To be quiet honest, I hate walking down this hall when everyone is gone. On Saturday I’ll be venturing home for my first winter break. An entire month at home without all the people I’ve become so close with here. This has become what I consider home. Yes, Iron River will always be my home at heart, but there’s this urge, a sense of calmness, when I think about being in Marquette. I love it here. I love everything about it. The people I’ve met, and the relationships I’ve formed here are better than any one I’ve formed at home. It’s so weird to think that I’ve formed such a bond with the entire college experience in one semester. Yes, this was the most stressful, odd four-ish months of my life. But I wouldn’t change a single thing about it.
Coming into my first semester of college I never thought I was going to get out of it what I did. Living in an all-girls hall sounded like bundles of fun. NOT. But now, I wouldn’t want, or imagine myself, living anywhere else. The Vu has become such a huge part of my life. I’ve learned so much in such a short time. Acceptance of the people around me, and even myself has been the most rewarding experience so far. Along with acceptance comes judgment. I judged basically every girl in this hall. The first two weeks I thought I was in the hall of misfits. I didn’t see myself bonding with anyone. I was never here; Marlowe and I were doing our own thing. We didn’t care about anyone else here. But one day I decided that I needed to give everyone a chance and I balled up and got to know a few of the girls, little by little. I never expected to become so close with so many of these girls. I’ve seriously met the most amazing people in my life, and some not so amazing. But that’s a whole different story.
Today was the big moving day for basically everyone in our house. That meant I had to say goodbye to Grace forever because she’s transferring. I also had to say goodbye to Marissa, who is probably one of the most down to earth girls I’ve ever met, for an entire month. We have a love/hate relationship. But secretly deep down inside I love the hell out of that girl. Tomorrow the rest of the house is leaving. Kali and Courtney are leaving. They’re transferring. Sucky day. Emily is also leaving tomorrow. I’ve become so close to her over the past few months. There’s definitely a road trip/us being reunited over winter break. One whole month without her just isn’t realistic. I think we’d both die. Basically, the moral of the story is tomorrow is going to suck.
I want to go home because I miss being home, but I know after a week I’m going to be itching at coming back here.
An entire month home…this is going to be interesting…
Peace.Love.Vu
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