Freshman Funk

Recently I've been in this funk.

Since I can remember, I've always been super confident in everything that I do. But for some reason, lately, I've been really pessimistic. I've been told it's typical for a new college students to go into this rut. Like, some sort of depression...I'm by no means depressed, it's just something new for me.

There have been two things recently that made me notice my negative thinking. One was me telling my track coach I didn't think I was mentally "ready" to go to the meet this past weekend. Now that I think about it, I was more than ready to compete. Maybe I was just too scared? I've ever been scared of competition. It's weird to think I kind of ran from it. Now I regret not going.

Anatomy and physiology is the next thing that has been involved in my negative thinking. All first semester I thought I was completely bombing the class; straight up failing. I never wanted to go to class, and when an exam came around I would freak out. The final made me go completely insane for a week. But come to find out I passed...by a lot. Stupid negativity bringing me down again.

So maybe all of this does have to do with this so called "freshman funk". Let's hope that's all it is at least. And let's hope it goes away, like, asap.

I don't like this new negative Nancy. Can I please have the confident, strong-willed Hannah back soon?