"I thought about this, and it really sucks to even say it, but I almost feel like I can't tell you everything. :( maybe it's just cause we haven't talked in awhile..."
I think my perceptions of a friendship are much different than the people around me. I've always thought that someone you consider a best friend will be there for you no matter what, even if you haven't talked for days or weeks or months. I've always had problems with loosing friends. Whether it be my childhood best friend who moved away in 4th grade, my middle school best friend who moved away in 8th grade, my friend through out the years who became my best friend my sophomore year who then graduated and moved on to college, or it be the one person I thought I would never lose but then decided I wasn't good enough to even be considered a friend anymore. Basically my friendship rep isn't the greatest. At first I thought it was just a string of bad luck with everyone moving away, but then Syd happened and now I feel like I'm going to lose all the great friends I've gained over this past school year. Living in Marquette, and most importantly, in the Vu has given me the opportunity to open up to so many different girls and gain so many amazing friendships. I don't want to lose that. One out of the four girls who I've become closest with will still be living in the Vu so I'm not worried about our frienship, but what about the others? My bestest friend in the whole wide world is just moving across the quad, but I'm still worried. She's going to be so busy in her own life being momma duck to all the Malibu girls. And the other two, well we just became close...and I really wish we would have been given more time to be together. But they're both moving off campus. And I know I'm going to gain so many new friends, and everyone's just a text away, and blah blah blah...but it's just not the same. Things are changing. I'm not good with change. And I really wish things could be how they used to be, in so many different aspects. But that'll never happen. I have to learn to accept that. Accept that things change. Accept that I'm moving on to a new chapter in my life. Accept that I can't go back to the way things used to be.
"I just wonder if you still remember or think of me once in awhile."
You are right in saying that things wont be the same, but that doesnt mean theyll be worse... in fact, think about it in the terms of you get to play a role in a whole batch of new girls lives, you get to help them through things that you have been through already and be there for them when they need someone and are having a hard time. welcome the new role and influence you have, do not be afraid of it... you are such a good girl and have an amazing heart... youre gonna make such a dfference in those girls lives. Plus, remember the great thing about best friends is that no matter how long it is between seeing them, you can pick things right back up where you left off and can always, like you said, get them with just a text or a call(:
ReplyDeletelove you, and your face(: