Para-Para-Paradise

This morning I was woken up by the buzzing of my phone. I had a text message from a friend saying “did Adri die?” Three words. That’s all. I had no idea. I was sleeping. I open up facebook to read post after post after post about this wonderful girl I knew so well. Adrianna Lee Ceron. The most free spirited, down to earth, care free person I have ever met. I never expected her to be ripped out of everyone’s lives so early. 18 years old. She had so much ahead of her. A career as a dance teacher, getting married, settling down and having a family, traveling the world, meeting new people, so much ahead. She never cared what people thought of her. She knew what she wanted in life and she pursued it. Moving out to California and taking the city life head on. She was larger than life, and her going out to the city made was one step closer to making all her dreams come true. I’m more than blessed to have had her touch my life. She made me realize that it doesn’t matter what people think of you. Haters are going to hate no matter what you do. So you may as well do what you want. Go out, get drunk, and party way too much. Do what you feel is right, never second guess your actions. Live young, wild, and free. Adri has affected so many of our lives whether she realized it or not. I’m selfish for feeling the way I do. Wanting one more messed up conversation with her. Wanted to see her dance on that gym floor one last time. See her wear something completely fucked up to school just to see everyone’s reactions. See her take the rules and bend them, break them, make them her own. See her be herself. See that smile, that long gorgeous hair, those dimples, that laugh. Just see her spunky, bubbly personality. One. Last. Time. I know we’ll never all be in the same room ever again, but I want it just one more time. I want to remember my exact last words to her. I want so much, but I’ll never have it. Mostly, I just want Adri to be happy. I want her to run wild and free, dancing through the gates of heaven. The soul takes flight to a world that is invisible, and there arriving she is sure of bliss and forever dwells in paradise. Rest peacefully.