Oooh Ahhh

Recently I've had this sudden, weird urge to write everything down. I'm not quite sure what possessed this since I've never been one to write anything in a journal or even express my feelings to anyone more than myself and a few close (but lucky) friends. I'm that type of person who holds everything in until one day you finally break. Well, unfortunately, today was that day. One ten minute phone conversation with my mother equals two hours of tears pouring out of me like Niagra Falls. Weakness...me showing weakness. I hate the feeling of weakness. I'm not a weak person; that's why I hold it in. The fact that, right now, I can't please everyone I want is killing me inside. I can only please so many people at one time, and the person I need to start with is me. I'm always worried about helping others; making them happy. When, in reality, it's me the I need to make happy. I need to step back and look at the big picture. Do what's right for me, not what I think is right for everyone else.