Winter Adventures

Here's just a few pictures to show what happened in my life the past few days.

We had a track meet in Madison, Wisconsin. Our hotel was literally a block from the capitol. It was so beautiful.

Halvy Hall skating party. Me and the ladies I live with. It was an adventure, but so much fun.

Kaitlyn and I had a little date during the skating party. We so sexy.

This picture basically defines The Vu. The three musketeers in the front, and Hailey being her sexual self in the back.

I love these girls more than anything. I don't know what I would do without them. :)

We had a snow day on Monday. Yeah, college gets snow days. The results=snow tumbling.

A little team work while sledding.

The Vu ladies built this masterpiece. Yes, of course Em, Kaitlyn, and I were the original culprits. What can I say? We're just so damn sexual.

Kaitlyn and I love penis hugs :)

 So as you can see, the past few days have been adventurous. And I've loved every second of it<3

Negative Nancy

I’ve been in a really good mood lately, and everything has been going amazing in my life. But today I found myself nitpicking every little thing about myself that I thought was negative. So here’s a list of a few things I noticed today that are my biggest downfalls. 

1. Sarcasm. I have difficulties with sarcasm. When you first meet me I may come off as intimidating, which I’m totally fine with, but you won’t be able to read me. My sarcasm may come off a little bitchy, and I know this is a bad thing. I try my hardest not to make myself sound bitchy when I’m sarcastic, but that’s my personality. Today someone pointed me out as “one of the most sarcastic people they know.” I don’t know if I should take this as a positive or a negative. But as of right now, it’s on my negative list. They made it seem like it was completely ok, but it still made me feel a little crappy about myself. 

2. Jealousy. I am a very jealous person. I know I don’t show it because I’m usually very good at hiding my emotions, but it’s definitely there. I noticed my jealousy was at its peak today. I’m not quite sure why, but I found myself jealous of other people’s friendships. Or even, like how other people are so much closer than I am with certain people. Or how they can talk to people about basically anything when I sometimes struggle with working up the courage to talk to people. I become extremely jealous when people make plans right in front of me, and I’m not included. I actually hate that, but that’s beyond the point. I’ve struggled with jealousy my entire life, so this isn’t something that just popped up out of nowhere. It’s just something I’m trying to accept about myself. 

3. Envy. I know this goes right along with jealousy, but it’s another thing I struggle with. I envy people’s personalities. I so much want to be like other people, but then again I try so hard to be my own person. It’s extremely tough to deal with. I envy the way people can act like themselves and not worry about what other people think. I usually don’t worry about what others think of me, but today I had a huge reality check. There was this stupid ordeal that showed me that not everyone likes me. So I envy the people who everyone seems to like. I also envy the relationship people form so easily with people I wish I could form a stronger relationship with. 

4. I’m not really sure what to categorize this last downfall so I’ll just semi explain what’s going through my mind. Basically I hate when people get this preconceived idea about me. I feel as though I put up this front that is hard for people to distinguish. I don’t know if I’m explaining this exactly how I want it to sound. I guess what I’m trying to say is I have so many different personality traits and images I display that people sometimes get confused. Prime example, today I had someone say to me that because I listen to Kid Cudi I must smoke pot. Wrong. Or because I’m an athlete I have to set certain standards for myself like not being able to party. Or because I’m blonde I must be dumb. And the list goes on and on. I just wish that I could be able to portray myself how I play it out in my head. But that’s pretty much impossible.

Kaitlyn and I have...

#whitegirlproblems

And help is definitely needed...

Freshhh

It’s the end of the first day of my second semester as a freshman in college. The past few days have been…interesting; to say the least. Here’s the first thing my Popular Culture professor said as I was walking into the classroom…

“Does anybody know what happens if you overdose on Sudafed? Well whatever. *pops multiple into his mouth* this is the real stuff, you know, the stuff you have to show your ID for…”

If this, plus my crazy-ass weekend, has any indication of what the rest of this semester is going to be like I’m in for an interesting semester that’s for sure.

Marquette, My Love

The things I miss about Marquette

1. Kirsten
2. All the people I've recently met
2. Having a set scheduled
3. The Vu and everyone that comes with it (well almost everyone)
4. Having to get up at 6 am
5. Friday nights with Em
6. The MP fries (never thought I would miss anything from the MP)
8. Being able to walk down the hall and see everyone.
9. Chilling in the TV room
10. Lake superior
11. Not having to drive 45 minutes to get to a Walmart
12. Awkward MP moments
13. Causing mischief daily
14. Actually having stuff to keep me busy
15. Track and the team
16. Ripping on Marissa 24/7 and having her return the favor
17. Having a town that doesn't completely shut down at 9:00
18. Goin hard on weekends
19. My sketchy, but extremely comfortable loft
20. And even though it sounds absolutely insane I kind of miss the drama that comes with living with 40+ other girls


I've been home for a little over two weeks and I have 8 days left here. I've enjoyed being home so far, but I'm ready to go back to where I belong. Marquette is calling my name.

You is kind. You is smart. You is important.

I watched The Help tonight.

This movie is so inspiring. It made me want to go out and do something, something important. Something to change people's lives like Skeeter changed the help's lives.

I don't have any idea what that is yet. But I've been inspired.

As Aibileen would say, "You is kind. You is smart. You is important."

Remember that. Always.

Christmas Time

It's Christmas Eve, and the day is winding down. It's been a hectic day full of last minute shopping, family, and food. Everyone in my house is snuggled into their nice warm beds, and I'm sitting here enjoying the quiet. Christmas is less than half an hour away. I'm preparing myself for all the craziness that comes with the holidays. But today, I've been thinking a lot about the whole meaning of family during Christmas. This started when I was at church earlier this evening.

I'll set the mood for you. My Mom, Dad, Grandma, and I sat in the pew of our little, white Finnish church. Every pew stuffed full of people because it's the Christmas Eve service. Pastor Kevin just got done lighting a candle in the hand of each person at the head of the pew, who then lit the next person's and so on. The lights have been dimmed and there is a soft lull of the piano in the background as we all sing Silent Night.

I'm lost in the flickering of my candle light, when my mom nudges me. I look up to see a family in the pew in front in front of me embracing each other. There was a Mom, Dad, and little girl not much older than five. As Silent Night comes to an end, the little girl reaches up to her dad and taps him on the shoulder. He turns to look at her and she kisses him softly on the cheek. She then turns to her mother and does the same. This moment made me think about how important family is, especially during the holiday seasons

The effect of losing someone you love is especially evident during the holidays. My Grandma has been having a tough time over the past few years during Christmas time because my Uncle Bob passed away in 2007. The singing of Silent Night during Christmas Eve always makes her cry. My Grandpa Marvin passed away on June 20th 2010. This is my second Christmas without him. I miss him so much everyday, and it's hard not having him celebrate the holidays with me. It's so weird not having him here, but then again I'm extremely lucky to have the family I do have. I have a loving Mother and Father who would drop anything in a second if I was in need of help. I have grandparents who love me to the moon and back, and an extended family who cares so much about me. I can't imagine what it would be like not having the family I've been blessed with. There are thousands of people out there that don't have a family to keep them happy daily. And this becomes extremely difficult for them during the holiday season. I wish everyone had a family who cared about them this time of year. Actually, I wish everyone in the world had a loving, caring family every day of the year. I know I cannot help them, but I wish that everyone would be happy this time of year. Christmas shouldn't be a sad time of year.

I'm not in need of anything spectacular for Christmas this year. I didn't ask for much. All I really want this year is for everyone to be happy. My big Christmas wish is for no one to be sad on Christmas day. This is a time for happiness.

Merry Christmas everyone!